My last post in 2013

firstly sorry for using "bahasa rojak" but seriously im not really into "bahasa malaysia"i even get C than my A english in my SPM however my english is getting poor and poor since I left school,7 years ago =_= (the time flies reaaaallly fast kan?) well today, 28.12.2013 the last saturday in 2013, the last weekend in my 2013 will start today and last tomorrow night :(

 There is a lot, lot of thing happen this year, early of the year it seems in my career, i thought that my career start to stabilize,i went to sabah for my bday trip celebration first flight after my PLKN trip last few years after my spm while we were there i do asking him about  " SETTLE DOWN" a.k.a GET MARRIED but i receive a very disappointing answer from him and then i expect nothing and try to focus on the other thing but before the trip he also bring me to meet his mum at his village and his mum reaction is like "i got no chance!":(

we come back to kuching and do our own thing like usually but not long after we coming back, his giving me a suprise again, i receive a msg from his cousin saying about his intention to sending his mum coming and meet my mum and in a blink of time his mum coming, and we get married, we fly to KL, we celebrate raya together, went to his village, now we are together welcoming the new year.

its quit a tough year tho but lets forget about the bad moment or try to think positive for what has happen.im thankful for what  have and what i has become and change today.semoga Allah mempermudahkan segala urusan kita di masa yang akan datang :)

Lana Del Rey - Summertime Sadness

let start the new day!

I made it clean just across the street
with my new wings.
So I'll just fly and hope that I remember the
good times when it's done.
Well.

THAT PERSON......

i miss that person,

his smile,

his face,

his voice,

his love,

the smile that use to erase all my problem for a while a long time ago,

that face that always remind me that i have him in every thing i do,

the voice that use to advice me and stand up for me and 1 more a good thing about him..he never raise his voice toward  me...

his love, i can still see it till the end of the day but..

the day before he "half sleep" he said to me that everything will be ok

i will wake up

i was there sitting next to you,

waiting outside the icu

hoping and praying that u will wake up and smile back to me,

i want to go out

there is a lot lot thing i want to do with you

but then..

after a week u didnt woke up

i went to school

i bring ur shirt for me to sleep with

but i cant sleep

i call mum...i want to  see you

but she said, no

and that noon..

after a day im going back, after 1 night sleep with your shirt

1 night not waiting for you after 7 days been outside your room

i'm been there again

but this time, all the machine has been put to their place

all the switches has been off

all the doctor wasnt there anymore

i see the tears on mum face instead a smile

i see u still lying on the bed instead of being ok

and u left me

i miss you until now

and still your was the only man that loves me a lot

i miss you

i wish i can see u in ur gray hair

wish i can now buy you thing cos i have a job

imiss you...abah!

Blog "appetizer"

Starting to create my blog because of the influences that has been spread out by my friend, (you know who you are) :p, but it end like this,messy,horrible and pfft** :'(..found that it was so,so,soooo complicated on created this blog..the more i explore, the more i dont understand** sigh :(, forgive me for this uninteresting blog but hey!im not creating this blog because of the follower or the reader,it was because of myself, i want to write and reread back later to remind myself how awesome is my life actually :)